ONGOING MISSION

Exercising with the people who have the place in my heart; my friends was really fun! We jogged, played badminton and rope skipping together. It was a lot of fun. I know if I am reading this post when I am older I'll be wondering who they are. So, in order to keep a vivid memory of the moment I am going to list every single one who joins the weight loss mission where I am the trainer. Well, I am not a real trainer as I don't have the qualifications. The only reason they assigned me as the trainer is simple, because I am thin. Haha. What kind of qualification is that? It’s a very peculiar reason to qualify me as a trainer. Okay, back to where we were; listing the people that I love who joins the mission apart from my whole family which obviously live in my heart since i know the meaning of love.

There are a total of eight people including me. Hehe. Two of them proposed the idea to me and of course I'll gladly accept the idea as I love exercising. 

They are Nurul Iffah binti Mohd and Nur Amalina binti Zaki. We started the first and second day of the mission with three people as the rest is busy plus lazy I think. Haha. Actually the next day of the first day we have the CTU examination (What kind of sentence is this? Keling! Bear with me. Haha) Well, for your information, we are now in the final examination month. The last day of the examination will be on 17th January 2016. About 19 days left to receive our freedom back.

On the third day, almost all of us join the mission.  

New members of the third day:
Nik Nur Hakimah binti Nik Abdullah
Nur Dinie binti Abdul Rahman
Nurul Nadia binti Zahari
Nurul Fatihah binti Jasmin

Actually, these new members are not trying to lose weight but they just want to exercise together with us, showing their support in this mission. Haha.

If you are counting, you’ll realize that something is off. The listed names are 6 + me = 7 people. There’s someone missing and she is Siti Nur Alia binti Abdul Hashim. I don’t know whether she’s not interested in exercising or it’s because of that big incident which happened recently**. Then, why did I include her in this post? It’s because my mission is to make her join us to exercise someday by hook or by crook. Haha.

It’s not like I want to force everyone to exercise with me just because I love exercising. I just love to do everything together. The togetherness is what I seek. When you share your interest with your friends, it will be a lot more fun as the saying goes, the more the merrier. I know that there are people who don’t like to exercise and I somehow have to respect their decision. Even though half of my heart disagree with that type of people because I will be like “Don’t they know the BENEFITS of exercising? It’s great for your health, people!”

Well, thanks to all of them, I was able to exercise joyously. I love them so much. (A very romantic side of me is revealed here which is why I didn’t tell any of my friends about this blog. Maybe, I did in the past to my friends in schools but I’m sure this blog is forgotten already as I rarely write back then).  

Ya Allah, Engkau mengetahui bahawa hati-hati ini telah berkumpul kerana mengasihiMu, bertemu untuk mematuhi (perintahMu), bersatu untuk memikul beban dakwahMu. Hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia mendaulat dan menyokong syariatMu. Maka eratkanlah ikantannya ya Allah. Kekalkanlah kemesraan antara hati-hati ini. Tunjukkanlah kepada hati-hati ini dengan limpahan iman/keyakinan dan keindahan tawakkal kepadaMu. Hidup suburkanlah hati-hati ini dengan pengetahuan sebenar tentangMu. Jika Engkau mentakdirkan mati maka matikanlah pemilik hati-hati ini sebagai para syuhada dalam perjuangan agamaMu. Engkaulah sebaik-baik sandaran dan sebaik-baik penolong. Ya Allah, perkenankanlah permintaan ini. Ya Allah, restuilah dan sejahterakanlah junjungan kami (Nabi) Muhammad SAW, keluarga dan para sahabat semuanya. Amin.

**My heart and mind are still battling whether I should share that incident story or not. If there’s a post on that incident, it means that my mind is listening to my heart. Haha.

AS THE HIDDEN SHOWN

I just wanna share something that might answer the questions that were playing in my friends mind. Yesterday, I have a very gloomy expression and I am incapable of making it bright as I usually am. Actually, I am disappointed in myself at that time because I overslept. Waking up late was really turning my mood down. I am not mad at my friends. Not AT ALL!!! I am REALLY MAD at myself that I feel like crying. The problem is, I don’t have any time alone that morning so I couldn’t cry my heart out as I have a class party to attend. I am holding everything in but I couldn’t manage my expression that well and my friends were asking me why I am different that day. They said I am not bright as always. I wanna tell them why but I know if I let it out my tears will follow. I just kept quiet. However, a friend of mine which was sitting beside me keep asking me why and it’s bothering me so I wrote a message to her using my phone, guessing that I won’t be crying that way. To my shock, after passing my-message-typed-phone to her my tears were rushing to come out. I don’t want anyone to see me that way because I am not sad because of them but because of MYSELF. So I hurriedly left the class to the toilet just beside it and my tears were running down my cheeks without a stop. I am scared that anyone of my friends will find me in that toilet so I decided to take the stairs and calm myself down after praying Dhuha in the surau. As I am bad with direction, I lost my way to the surau. Hahaha. And because of that, she found me on my right path to the surau. I couldn’t hide any longer and she persisted on staying with me in that surau. After I had calm down as my anger was disappearing along with the tears I shed, then I returned to my normal self. Well, that’s me. Whenever I am mad or sad or have any unpleasant feeling I will cry. After all the crying I can be normal again. If I hold in the tears, I will be a little bit gloomy. I never hold it in before and it answers everything.

UNEXPECTED GOOD LEAP

It's literally considered as a good leap. However, to me it's a scary good leap. I'm scared that after the leap I'm going to land onto a lower place than before I made that leap. It will hurt so much if that happens. I wish that I can keep leaping, soaring upwards to the never ending sky. Will that become a reality? It's up to me right? The decision is in my hand. Wherever I want to land, I have to work hard for it. It's my new determination. Oh! How I wish this come to me sooner. U just showed up when I can already sense the smell of final which is just around the corner. It's silhouette is clearly seen even by my naked eyes(I mean without my spectacles as I am a specky) and it starts to haunt me. Luckily it's not that late. I still have time. I need to use it wisely from now on. I can do it! Fighting!