Yesterday

It has been months,
That I last lost the battle,
The hardest one so far,
The battle with my own self

Right after losing,
I felt very helpless,
As I can't stop myself,
From doing things that I'll regret
My inner self keep screaming,
'SAVE ME FROM MYSELF'

My mind went blank,
So I remained still for a while,
Staring at the walls blankly,
While trying to hate myself,
As I really regret my action,
However I will never succeed,
Cause I am one,
I can never hate myself.

Slowly, my mind sobered up,
I can't do anything to undo my action,
Nor can I erase it,
But I still have the present,
To make things better for my future,
I need to start changing without any delay.

Only you can change your own life,
The choice is in your hand,
Whether to make it better or worser,
Think carefully,
Act wisely,
So that your action will not do any harm to your life.

Keep Turning Back

That time,
Upon realizing
You are getting further,
U started to feel guilty,
U started to change,
But it doesn't go smooth,
There's some resistances,
Come up on your way,
U started to feel scared,
That He already left U,
As U do it over and over again

The Emptiness,
Anxiousness,
Helplessness,
Restlessness,
And Nervousness
Filling up your empty heart,
As U feel useless,
U started crying,
While praying,
That He still accepting,
Ur million-th repentant

It's not like U r not sincere,
With your repentance before,
But the devils are cleverer,
They keep making U a sinner,
To join them in hell in hereafter.

Keep fighting sisters and brothers,
Let's keep reprimanding each others,
So that we can be together,
With our beloved Prophet later.

Paradise isn't cheap,
There's a price for us to pay,
That's why people say,
World is a 'prison' for Mukmin,
Coz there's many restrictions,
To test our faith and patience.

Don't give up after U fall,
Even after so many times,
Quickly get up and turn to Him,
Always keep in mind,
No matter how many times U sin,
He will not leave U,
He never gets tired of giving and forgiving,
As He is the Most Merciful, Most Forgiving.

The devils never give up,
U should keep up,
Don't ever lose hope,
It's never too late,
Before the sun is up,
Right from the West side!