Part I: MY DAD MY HERO
(in my family's chatting group)
Me: Mummy, daddy.. I won't be going back home this weekend.. I feel obligated to accompany my friend that will be staying at the college alone..
Daddy: Why don't you invite her to our house?
Me: Haha. Next time I will.
Daddy : Is your pocket money is still enough? If not your we will go there..while sightseeing..
Me : It's still enough for next week daddy and I'll definitely going back home next weekend..
Daddy : Okay
It's a conversation between me and my beloved daddy. I just wanna say daddy, I love you so much. I am really shy to say this directly to you so I will write it in here as a proof of my greatest love. Mummy, daddy, I love you guys so much that it can't be expressed merely through words. I know I am not that of an obedient daughter. I used to be very stubborn that sometimes it might hurt both of you. Now I am matured enough to be able to control myself. I want to pull a smile on your face everyday (p/s: Maher Zain song's lyric). It's still not too late. I will start right now. I don't want to be regretting it after they're no longer in this world. I will show them my love. I want them to be proud of me. I don't want to make them worry about me.
They're getting older. I can clearly see that through the grey hairs that's growing on my father's head. I am really scared actually. The thought that they'll be leaving me someday is the scariest thing on earth. I want them to be here for a long time. I want them to see my child, and even my grandchild. But it's still uncertain right. Who knows that maybe I'll be leaving this world before them.
I don't know which scenario that I want:
1)Me leaving first - they'll be sad
2)They first - I can't imagine how my life would be without them.
Everybody will be experiencing death. That's certain. Remembering that, it has awaken me. It has turned me into a better daughter. However, sometimes, we, human can't escape from doing mistakes. I do too, but I will my best not to repeat my mistakes. I am going to make them happy every single day as we don't know when our last day on earth.
That's all from me tonight. It's a teary message but I tried my best not to cry as my friend is just on her bed beside me. I don't want her to see me cry.
