My Parent, My World!

Part I: MY DAD MY HERO

(in my family's chatting group)

Me: Mummy, daddy.. I won't be going back home this weekend.. I feel obligated to accompany my friend that will be staying at the college alone..
Daddy: Why don't you invite her to our house? 
Me: Haha. Next time I will.
Daddy : Is your pocket money is still enough? If not your we will go there..while sightseeing..
Me : It's still enough for next week daddy and I'll definitely going back home next weekend..
Daddy : Okay 

          It's a conversation between me and my beloved daddy. I just wanna say daddy, I love you so much. I am really shy to say this directly to you so I will write it in here as a proof of my greatest love. Mummy, daddy, I love you guys so much that it can't be expressed merely through words. I know I am not that of an obedient daughter. I used to be very stubborn that sometimes it might hurt both of you. Now I am matured enough to be able to control myself. I want to pull a smile on your face everyday (p/s: Maher Zain song's lyric). It's still not too late. I will start right now. I don't want to be regretting it after they're no longer in this world. I will show them my love. I want them to be proud of me. I don't want to make them worry about me.

          They're getting older. I can clearly see that through the grey hairs that's growing on my father's head. I am really scared actually. The thought that they'll be leaving me someday is the scariest thing on earth. I want them to be here for a long time. I want them to see my child, and even my grandchild. But it's still uncertain right. Who knows that maybe I'll be leaving this world before them.

I don't know which scenario that I want:
1)Me leaving first - they'll be sad
2)They first - I can't imagine how my life would be without them.

          Everybody will be experiencing death. That's certain. Remembering that, it has awaken me. It has turned me into a better daughter. However, sometimes, we, human can't escape from doing mistakes. I do too, but I will my best not to repeat my mistakes. I am going to make them happy every single day as we don't know when our last day on earth.
That's all from me tonight. It's a teary message but I tried my best not to cry as my friend is just on her bed beside me. I don't want her to see me cry.

A best friend of mine
First met in 2009
All I did was tickling
I don't even know what I was doing
But Sarah & her keep on laughing
Those reactions keep me going

2010 was the second year,
In which had make us closer,
Next to me she was seated
Wonderful memories created
We are still unmatured
Through china flag we bickered
Few days our lips were sealed
In front of Runcit Hassan we reconciled

To Wataniah we transferred
The reunion made an offer
For us to be bestfriend forever
Twin is what we were called
Always being together
Beautiful memories were gathered
Too many to be uncovered
They will always be treasured

Afterschool,
sea had separated us
She studied miles away
Separation teaches me the word 'longing'
In which being tgether it'll never appear
How time flies
The memory is like it was just yesterday
All the school life
All the silly things we commit
Everything we did
The fun we had
The sorrow we shared
and
Toward each other we care

Nowadays
We rarely meet
As in face to face
Ws & Fb keep us in touch
Our break didn't match
'JUST & UiTM' is a test
To determine this bond grade
Can't wait to finish the studies
To freely hangout with her
Going there for a vacation
Will be a dream come true
She promised to be a good tourguide
Will it be a reality?

From afar I am watching
Although my skill is talking
To ur stories I'll be listening
I won't stop caring
Until I am dying
Coz u r my darling
This is the ending
Coz it starts to be cheesy
Bye bye is what I am saying

A poem dedicated to my best friend Zaati Nabilah.. Can it be called a poem? Whatever.. Haha

Jam + Bread

Wowwowow!
Being in the bus for soooo long made me wanna write a poem or a rap or anything to express my feeling.. Haha.. Feeling blue out of sudden..

A complete darkness
With my blurred vision
Nothing caught in my sight
Except for the red lights
Turning my face red
All vehicles
Have the red lights on
In a paused video
Or Moving slower than tortoise
12 hours plus have passed
When will I reach there
The not-so-comfy-but-so-so bed
Patiently waiting for me
The cold shower
The unopened books

My battery is dying
My legs want to be straightened
My back wants to be laid
My neck wants a pillow
My whole body need rest

But no need to worry
A payback time will eventually come
Whether in the midnight or tomorrow
A soundless sleep
In a right place(a room)
Only time that matters
Everything will pass
U will reach ur destination

That's all from me
Writing in the Kiffah bus
It's a journey from Kelantan to Selangor
Which usually takes about 7/8 hours
K..Back to sleep
For the 20th time maybe
Hehe

Welcome 2016

How time flies. It's 2016 people. A new year but it's still the old me. Hehe. I had make up my mind and decided to use this blog as my diary. I've always wanted to keep a diary but I just can't. I'll be really excited at first and write a long essay at first but then I won't be writing frequently. For all these 20 years and 11 months I've been living, I've failed to keep even ONE proper diary.(Not officially 21! ^_~). I know I won't be posting every single day but I'll try my best to write all the memory that I treasure on this year. In shaa Allah. Its because when I grow older, I want to be able to remember every details of the scene or story that I've experienced in life no matter it's a happy,shameful, even a painful or sorrowful memory. As long as it's significant. It could be a life lesson to me, reprimanding me not to repeat my mistakes and it could be something that I could share with my children if it's a wonderful memory. 

I've chosen this medium to keep my memory as I press my keyboards more often than I hold my pens. So, it's seems to be the righteous decision for a keyboard warrior like me. ^_^. 

It's the fourth day of the new year. I am still in my final examination month but with a 10 days gap till the next paper, I don't feel the urge to study which is the biggest problem that I face right now. By any means, I should force myself to do it as the previous one is a struggle. I didn't manage to answer it that well. It was really difficult. I hope that madam will not be that strict in marking our Parasitology paper. We did the best we could in answering but the questions seems to be a level higher than us(me and all my friends). 

The next paper will be Genetics followed with Ecology and Marketing. I have to start studying so that I won't be repeating the same mistake I did for my beloved Parasitology subject. To be honest, I love Parasitology as it deals with parasites that cause diseases, especially to human. However, it's to much for me to handle. There's a lot of species which are new to me with very weird names which made my tongue twisted even to pronounce them. Haha. 

For example, Ichthyopthirius multifilis(white spot disease called ich to fish). Eimeria tenella(cecal diarrhea), Entamoeba histolytica(intestinal parasite),E.coli,E. gingivalis, Naegleria fowleri(brain parastite), Acanthamoeba sp(eye parasite), Alaria Americana, Schistosoma mansoni,S.japonicum,S.haematobium, Echinostoma sp. Fasciola hepatica,F.gigantica,Fasciolopsis buski, Dicrocoelum dendriticum(cow fluke), Haematolechus medioplexus(toads lung fluke), Prosthogonimus marcrorchis(birds fluke), Paragonimus westermani(human lung fluke), Clonorchis sinensis(Chinese/oriental liver fluke), Heterophyes heterophyes(intestinal fluke), Dipyllobothrium latum, Echinococcus multicularis(fox tapeworm),E.granulosus(dog tapeworm), Taenia saginata(beef tapeworm), Taenia solium(pork tapeworm), Dipylidium caninum(cat/dog tapeworm),Hymenolepis nana(dwarf tapeworm), Trichuris trichuria(whip worm), Trichinella spiralis(pork worm), Ascaris lumbricoides, Toxocara canis/cati, Anisakis sp, Strongyloides stercoralis(threadworm), Ancylostoma duodenale/Necator Americanus(hookworm), Wuchereria bancrofti/Brugia malayi(elephantiasis), Onchocerca volvulus(river blindness), Loa loa, Dirofilaria immitis(heartworm) and the list go on and on. 

Wow! It's amazing that I can remember all these anomalous parasites name. I am proud of myself. Although I can't answer the questions excellently, I hope that everything that I learned and memorized will stay in my brilliant brain forever. We all know that, brain is amazing as it have unlimited usage and storage. So, I want to hone my brain as sharp as a shining tack. However, a brain need a daily rest in order to function well which I didn't provide it to my brain yet today as I can't sleep. I don't know why. By all means, I have to sleep to avoid the popular brain shutdown among sleepless students called aneurysm. So that's all for now!

ONGOING MISSION

Exercising with the people who have the place in my heart; my friends was really fun! We jogged, played badminton and rope skipping together. It was a lot of fun. I know if I am reading this post when I am older I'll be wondering who they are. So, in order to keep a vivid memory of the moment I am going to list every single one who joins the weight loss mission where I am the trainer. Well, I am not a real trainer as I don't have the qualifications. The only reason they assigned me as the trainer is simple, because I am thin. Haha. What kind of qualification is that? It’s a very peculiar reason to qualify me as a trainer. Okay, back to where we were; listing the people that I love who joins the mission apart from my whole family which obviously live in my heart since i know the meaning of love.

There are a total of eight people including me. Hehe. Two of them proposed the idea to me and of course I'll gladly accept the idea as I love exercising. 

They are Nurul Iffah binti Mohd and Nur Amalina binti Zaki. We started the first and second day of the mission with three people as the rest is busy plus lazy I think. Haha. Actually the next day of the first day we have the CTU examination (What kind of sentence is this? Keling! Bear with me. Haha) Well, for your information, we are now in the final examination month. The last day of the examination will be on 17th January 2016. About 19 days left to receive our freedom back.

On the third day, almost all of us join the mission.  

New members of the third day:
Nik Nur Hakimah binti Nik Abdullah
Nur Dinie binti Abdul Rahman
Nurul Nadia binti Zahari
Nurul Fatihah binti Jasmin

Actually, these new members are not trying to lose weight but they just want to exercise together with us, showing their support in this mission. Haha.

If you are counting, you’ll realize that something is off. The listed names are 6 + me = 7 people. There’s someone missing and she is Siti Nur Alia binti Abdul Hashim. I don’t know whether she’s not interested in exercising or it’s because of that big incident which happened recently**. Then, why did I include her in this post? It’s because my mission is to make her join us to exercise someday by hook or by crook. Haha.

It’s not like I want to force everyone to exercise with me just because I love exercising. I just love to do everything together. The togetherness is what I seek. When you share your interest with your friends, it will be a lot more fun as the saying goes, the more the merrier. I know that there are people who don’t like to exercise and I somehow have to respect their decision. Even though half of my heart disagree with that type of people because I will be like “Don’t they know the BENEFITS of exercising? It’s great for your health, people!”

Well, thanks to all of them, I was able to exercise joyously. I love them so much. (A very romantic side of me is revealed here which is why I didn’t tell any of my friends about this blog. Maybe, I did in the past to my friends in schools but I’m sure this blog is forgotten already as I rarely write back then).  

Ya Allah, Engkau mengetahui bahawa hati-hati ini telah berkumpul kerana mengasihiMu, bertemu untuk mematuhi (perintahMu), bersatu untuk memikul beban dakwahMu. Hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia mendaulat dan menyokong syariatMu. Maka eratkanlah ikantannya ya Allah. Kekalkanlah kemesraan antara hati-hati ini. Tunjukkanlah kepada hati-hati ini dengan limpahan iman/keyakinan dan keindahan tawakkal kepadaMu. Hidup suburkanlah hati-hati ini dengan pengetahuan sebenar tentangMu. Jika Engkau mentakdirkan mati maka matikanlah pemilik hati-hati ini sebagai para syuhada dalam perjuangan agamaMu. Engkaulah sebaik-baik sandaran dan sebaik-baik penolong. Ya Allah, perkenankanlah permintaan ini. Ya Allah, restuilah dan sejahterakanlah junjungan kami (Nabi) Muhammad SAW, keluarga dan para sahabat semuanya. Amin.

**My heart and mind are still battling whether I should share that incident story or not. If there’s a post on that incident, it means that my mind is listening to my heart. Haha.